Weird

I did not see my father nor talk to him for the whole Thursday (yesterday). But I did talk to my mom course she came into my room and we sort of had a debate. I told most things to my mom. But I don't think it helps. Course I am still facing the similar problem. I don't dare to talk with my dad now as that day I sort of fight him back when he was trying to scold me. And it's the same today, I don't dare to go down. I already brought 2 bottles of water up and I don't plan to go down tonight.

There are biscuit here I bought the other day, but I don't plan to eat course I wanna keep fit. I have my PC here with me, thou I am feeling a bit bored. I have most of the things here. So no worries. I am not hiding from him. I just want him to forget what had happened that day. I will still have to see him on Saturday, means tomorrow la.

People. I tell you what. It's not that I did not tell them whatever they want to know. Like how I told my friends in college. If you wanna go out with me or invite me out, please let me know when and where we are going as I have to write a proposal for my parents. I do tell them :

• Where I am going
• Who I am going with
• How am I going
• When am I going
• When will I be back
• How am I coming back
• Why am I out
• What will I do there
• Leave friends number
• Leave friends address

But somehow, sometimes I just felt so bored doing all those stuff. They keep asking but I don't mind going through all these if they can promise me for my freedom. To tell the truth. I am not mad at them, I just don't like the way they look or think.

I was really mad when they are talking/speaking/lecturing/scolding me. I released it off in my blog by... scolding foul language and I know I should not do that. But you know what ? I became better after that. I was not that mad after all. It's because they are my parents, how can I hate them ?

I thought I can challenge them by not talking to them. I was quite quiet yesterday. Partly due to not enough sleeping time. But today, I talked with her. It is hard to be mad at your parents, unless they really did something terribly bad to you, but I don't think you will hate them.

Okay, drop this topic ! I am so tired of working now.

Although there is still Selina helping but I am really tired of working already. And I am tired of my ugly face. I know I know, you will say I don't look bad, I look just fine, and some even said that I got the pretty boy look which I doubt I got.

Come on ! My hair is dry, dull, messy, untidy, hard to comb, hard to style and hard to maintain. I don't like my hair style so much ! But I have to bare with it~ (yes I know I am consider lucky, at least I got hair) My face is old, ugly, got pimple, not gorgeous, not photogenic, not handsome, not good looking ! Yes I have to stay with it ~ (and yes, I do know I should appreciate it course there are some poeple who are not as lucky as I am) My body, not fit, not nice, got tummy, and I know I am lazy. Nothing I can blame...

Oopsy... sorry, I just feel like doing that.

Erm, where was I ? Hahaha ! I guess I better stop blogging. Bye [J]