Split Personality Or Just Hypocrite ?

I don't know why, I am just confuse.

Today the whole day, I just felt so moody,
I don't know why.
I planned to do my Treasurer Report and Secretary Minutes during the weekend but I fail to do so.
Reason is I was busy cleaning up my room today and went out the whole day yesterday.
I am so moody today,
and I don't know why.

I realised that when I am doing nothing,
I will start thinking.
When I start thinking,
things that I normally think about is...

my sad things,
which will makes me even sad;
or my stupid things,
which will makes me smile for a while;
or my angry things,
which will makes me angry.
Yes, I am moody today,
but I don't know why.

I think I have a few personality within me,
or maybe I am just being hypocrite ?
For the whole day I felt moody,
too moody to do too much stuff,
I think too much,
and eventually feel like getting angry,
for no reason.

I felt something is coming out
from somewhere
in my body
or my mind
or even my soul.

Yes, very freaky indeed.
It's like a demon,
tries to make it's way to come out,
a demon is taking over me ?
It's impossible I guess,
but the word "SATANISM" just striked my mind today,
just now, when I was waiting for my burger.

Yes, I was thinking again while waiting for my burger.
I felt something coming out,
but I stop it.
Luckily.

Not just today.
For countless time in my life,
I always doing something that I don't really want to.
Am I just being a hypocrite or ?
Am I having a split personality ?
Or maybe 2 ?
Perhaps 3 ?
Or more ?
I don't know,
maybe I am just confuse,
hopefully.

I don't mean to scare you.
I don't mean to get your attention this time.
I just feel like telling you what I feel.

Am I suppose to get a psychologist ?
To help me ?
Or find a psychiatry ?
Or meet a counselor ?
I don't know, I just don't know.
Maybe I just don't want to know,
or I don't bother to know.

Arrggh !
I am a hypocrite la !
A super duper hypocrite !
I don't believe that I actually post about this !
I am crazy !

Ignore me ! [J]